This reminded me of an old classic.

We all have to find our way–Who you are is you, and that is what makes you special.

Eh, who needs humanity when you can be puppy :3

Does one of your legs split in two, like Squidward?

I think I am missing something that makes me a catgirl 😞

You will

you can get better. i thought the same thing a few years ago when i finally started going to therapy. in the beginning it didnt feel like i was doing anything, like it wasnt working. i was so deep in masking, my maladaptive coping strategies, my numbness and fear. but slowly i started challenging myself to change, to address the ways i hurt myself to protect myself. ive learned a lot and changed a lot, and i sometimes even feel some hope that i can be a real person, and sometimes i even feel like i am. theres still so much to do but im getting better all the time.

its hard, and it hurts, and its so fucking scary to try to heal the parts of you deep inside that other people beat into submission, but you can do it. just one little step at a time.

$5 says it’s lifestyle

I have no idea if this is the right modality with which to get through to you, but it worked for me: look up schema therapy. My tests flagged with the defectiveness/shame schema, which is exactly what this post is describing - the belief that you are fundamentally broken and unfixable, and you should feel ashamed of that. If that resonates, just do an internet search. You are not alone in this, and it can get better. I won’t say that it will get better, because that part is up to you. But it can.

Of course you are missing parts. But you will never find the missing piece in your apartment. It’s somewhere out in the wilderness hiding behind a tree. You gave it up to get food and shelter and clean water. But now it’s all gone wrong.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Collapse:_How_Societies_Choose_to_Fail_or_Succeed

https://www.livescience.com/20614-collapse-mythical-river-civilization.html

I basically said this to my therapist and she changed the subject. Sigh.